Why, you might ask, "squiggles"? Well, here's the thing: I cannot draw. Or paint. I used to love both as a child but then I learnt in school that I'm actually pretty bad at both. That ruined all the fun of this way of expressing and creating. Because who wants to do stuff when they're not good enough? When they don't get it right?
So I didn't draw, or paint, for years. Twenty of them, I believe. Every now and then the urge would arise, I'd take up pen and paper - and then agonise over what to draw. And suffer deep shame because nothing ever turned out the way I imagined it, it was all flat and looked as if a child had drawn it.
Still not encouraging. I stopped again.
Until about two years or so ago, some time late 2018, maybe. I felt to draw, I wanted to express myself with colours, but since I can't do shapes: I bought a colouring book. That was fun! I wanted more of that, wanted more freedom of expression.
Then I discovered ecoline brush pens. First I tried out the Five Shades of Yellow, then bought a whole rainbow, and went for it. Those are squiggles #1 to #3.
Because see, I cannot draw. Or paint. And as long as I call it drawing or painting, even inside of my head, I get stuck. On the not-good-enough, on the shame.
But the doing itself is fun, is freedom, lightness, joy. So what would happen, I asked myself, if I used a different word? One that wasn't loaded with negative emotions. One that expressed the joyfulness and playfulness. One like ... squiggles!
And that word changed the game entirely. Because now everything about this is fun, is lightness and joy and playfulness, both the action and the description!
And that's why they are squiggles. :-)
squiggles the first
trying out the yellows and reds of my new brush pens brushpen on paper, 297 x 420 mm, 190g/qm
squiggles the second
trying out the blues, greens, and blue-greens brushpen on paper, 297 x 420 mm, 190g/qm
squiggles the third
why not ... throw ALL the colours at the paper? yeah. brushpen on paper, 297 x 420 mm, 190g/qm
angel rising
it started with an angel's wing - and became a flame brushpen on paper, 297 x 420 mm, 190g/qm
underwater squiggles
just following the flow ... and a vision ... to this :-) brushpen on paper, 297 x 420 mm, 190g/qm
fireworks
energy rising as colour, flowing outward ... like fireworks brushpen on paper, 297 x 420 mm, 190g/qm
rupture/rapture
breaking open, breaking apart, and the light/energy/colour spills forth brushpen on paper, 297 x 420 mm, 190g/qm
squiggles the tree
can I do a tree the squiggle wy? I wondered. yes, I believe I can :-) brushpen on paper, 297 x 420 mm, 190g/qm
seven dancing angels
straight from the place where they live come these seven dancing angels to you, inviting you to dance with them brushpen on paper, 297 x 420 mm, 190g/qm
blue squiggles small
playing around with shades of blue and different paper ... brushpen on paper, 210 x 297 mm, 130g/qm
night mist
this doesn't look remotely the way it did in my head - but I like it anyway :-) brushpen on paper, 24 x 32 cm, 300g/qm
flowing like water
sometimes you simply need all shades of blue and go with the flow ... brushpen on paper, 297 x 420mm, 190g/qm
Avalon Rising
so named as this exploded out of me after the Avalon Rising World Summit 2020 brushpen on paper, 297 x 420 mm, 190g/qm
the answer
I asked Universe a question. This was the answer. brushpen on paper, 297 x 420 mm, 190g/qm
gentle explosion
not everything has to be hard and harsh. some explosions can be gentle brushpen on paper, 297 x 420 mm, 190g/qm
lotus fire
or maybe it's a crystal? there is certainly all kinds of light coming out of it ... brushpen on paper, 210 x 297 mm, 130g/qm
[no title]
... well. it happened? (I really like it, too) brushpen on paper, 210 x 297 mm, 130g/qm
from the source
all energy flows, Yoda said. probably. brushpen on paper, 297 x 420 mm, 190g/qm
connection
this came out of nowhere and turned into "connecting the dots". squiggle style brushpen on paper, 297 x 420 mm, 190g/qm
communication
this took three days of increasing tension, before I was able to sit down and let it burst out. there is a communication in there. I don't know what that is, though. do you understand? brushpen on paper, 210 x 297 mm, 130g/qm
hollyberry/autumn
when Universe is trying to tell you something, but you can't read the signs (anybody?) drawn entirely using the brushpen "autumn" colour pack brushpen on paper, 297 x 420 mm, 190g/qm
a joyous spark
just that drawn on the back of an old calendar - so much space, so much white, but the thing is finished. with just a spark. ;-) brushpen on paper (Quatro (tm) Silk), 550 x 890 mm, 200g/qm
Big Blue
going crazy on a big canvas. awesome. still the back of the old calendar, bruspen on paper, 550 x 890 mm, 200g/qm
dancing flame
or maybe it's a flame angel? brushpen on paper, 297 x 420 mm, 190g/qm, and some edits to the colours
sacred ground
this kind of looks like what I felt during the meditation brushpen on paper, 297 x 420mm, and again some edits to get the colours more right (not right enough tho)